||[Jan. 27th, 2004|08:44 pm]
|||||the good life "off the beaten path"||]|
it's been surreal lately here at the homefront. i'm babysitting lauren while my mother is in europe, and frankly, playing the suburban housewife has turned me into a walking ball of neuroses the past few days.
i'm feeling all right now, though, which is nice. after a day of household chores, running errands, and working out, i fixed a leisurely dinner for my sister and myself consisting of grilled fish, baked potatoes, steamed asparagus and a caesar salad. (oh yes, and a nice bottle of chardonnay for myself. i don't usually drink white, but it goes with the fish better than red.) post-dinner, i ensured that her homework was done; now we're watching the spurs game.
i feel like such a mother. it's bizarre!
i think another reason my emotions are completely across the board right now is the fact that i am moving in one week. seven days. i feel as if i'm not completely prepared for the move, but in actuality, i am. i think it's just my nerves getting to me.
my lady has been so good to me these past couple of days. it's been tough on both of us, the way i've been busy with lauren a lot lately, but i feel it's necessary. i'd hate to leave my family on bad terms.
god, i'm really going to miss my family, more than i realized i would. and my dogs, too! the good thing is i'll be back in texas sometime during the summer, and i'm really looking forward to that, because sarah and i can both go to school and be productive at the same time.
i'm really pretty tired of doing the long-distance thing and i just can't do it anymore. lately, every day has been a battle... i can't bear to live like this much longer.
perhaps it's just my neuroses speaking. or my hormones.